b.E.t.T.e.R d.i.E d.E.n L.i.V.e !!!!

it's been awhile since my last post,...
miss 2 write in dis blog again,..
i write dis tyme jz like usual to burst out all da thing dat i feel 4 da WHOLE day,..
O.M.G,..!!
i dun like my live in dis house,.. !!!
y am i not jz DIED,..!!!!
i hate my live like dis,.. !!!
u wanna noe what da hell happen,..???
den dis da story behind it,.. !!!!

2day jz like d other day in my sem break but da diff is jz it feel like SHIT,..!!!
me n my sis were supposed 2 clean da WHOLE house b'coz of dis thing 2 get rid of evil spirit in my house AGAIN,..!
den we done it n we felt tired like HELL n jz GOD noe hw it feel,..
dis evening my granny at kitchen to cook sumthing obviously den we jz sat at da living room while im watching my fvt channel, my sis watch 90210 on her lappy den my granny at da kitchen cooked wif dis noisy sound,..
it's like she thrown da stuff at da kitchen 2 attract us 2 help her,..
i noe what her intensu=ion is but i jz sat der like FUCKING deaf,..
i dun feel like wanna help her evn 4 a 'lil thing,..
den my siswent 2 da kitchen n help her 4 a 'lil den her went back in front,..
den she do it again, throw stuff, my sis went back 2 da kitchen,..
b4 she went 2 da kitchen she told me wif her fucking annoying tone of her voice, said 'r u not gonna help granny at all ? ' den she gone,..
i was like 'what da hell ?' den i cont watching my fvt programme,..
after my sis help my granny 4 da second tyme, she went upstairs n kept herself up der,..
i dun gve a damn at all what her doing,.. it's not my damn bsness,..

den all my fam dat go 2 work get back 4m their office den eat what did my granny cook,..
n i still fucking sit n watched tv like what i did 4 da past 3 hours,..
im enjoyed 2 do dat rather den get in wif my fam conversation,..
den when i fin watch what i watch den i wanna tke a bath den my mom ask me what's wrong wif me den i jz said im fine den leave,..
dun evn turn my back,..
im fin bathing den i open my lappy n wanna enjoyed my on9 tyme,..
den out of da sudden my parents went up wif my 'lil bro,..
it's too early 4 dem 2 went upstairs,..
den my mom come 2 me den ask me 'why are u acting like dis ? wanna mke all people in dis house an enemy', den i goes 'what da hell r u talking bout?'
after dat i jz put my earphone den hear da songs out loud 'till can't hear her voice nemore,..
den she jz gone 2 her room,..
den i was like release cz will not gonna face her face,..
but what ui thought was jz BULLSHIT
cz not long den my dad call me n ask what happen 2 me AGAIN!
CAN'T THEY JZ GET DAT I SAID IM FINE,... !!
IF IM NOT OK I WILL BE CRAZY RYTE NW 2 LIVE IN DIS FAM,..!!!

ac2ly my maddes 2day jz b'coz of my granny dat mke me wanna KILLED HER n LIVE MY LIFE HAPPILY WITHOUT HER,.. !!!!
i dun bother 2 help her in da kitchen but dun she noe dat we jz get da WHOLE house cleaned,..????!!!
n y must she done what hve she done b4,..???
dat's was annoying,...!!!!
I DUN LIKE IT,...!!!
REALLY HATE IT,.. !!
but did she realise n feel what we felt,..??
NO,..!!
DA THING DAT SHE NOE JZ GVE US COMMAND 2 DO DIS N DAT,..!!!!!
WHAT A PSYCHO,..!!!
y did i said dat,..??
while we were like crazy tierd cleaned da house dat full of messiness dat not our fault of do it, she kept command us do so mny thing,..
we are not much diff like ROBOTS,..!!
given told 2 do THOUSANDS of work at da same tyme,..!!
'till we leave our work dat we were doing 2 do d other work,..!
didn't u, in my palce, wanna killed dat kind of person,..??
n jz imagine u were living wif dat kind of kind 4 da whole 21 years of ur live,..??!!!
IT WAS LIKE HELL, i tell u,..!!

if u tell me dat other fam diff live dey live in,..
YES I DID NOE DAT,..!!
but i think im jz enough 2 handle dis kind of thing but der's nothing i can do,..
i will live wif her till i DIE i guess since my parents keep saying dat we will be moving out but der r nothing happen 4 da 5 - 6 years past,..!!
if we were moving out den me will become a crazy person will reduce cz i will jz handle wif my mom n my sis only 2 get orders or anything else,..!!
but i dun noe 4 hw long will i stay wise,.. !!
hope i will stay nise till i go 2 KOREA,.. !!
der r da 1st n last place i wanna go,..
der r no other place i wanna go,..!
jz KOREA,..
but i also dun evn noe when i will go der,..!!
huhuhuhuhu,..

den i jz wrap dis up,..
dat's all i wanna tell 'bout my fucking sucks day of my live 2day,..!!
gudbye, annyeong, wassalam,..!!

my lovely family *_*

what will happen to my fam ac2ly,..?? i jz heard dat my mom said dat she, my dad n my granny hve sumthing on their body,..! i dun noe hw 2 pronounce it but in malay is 'santau n gne2',.. it's jz like sumone send u thing 4 really bad intention,.. huhuhuhu,.. when i heard dat i really got a goosebumps,.. can u imagine dat 4 dis long u've been talking 2 ur dad, ur mom n ur granny but other things hear it 2,.. aigoo,..~~ im so sad 4 them,..

da thing dat hanging at my dad's back r 2 broke my parents relation ac2ly,.. n da thing dat my granny had i dun noe what exctly it is 4,... huhuhuhuhu,.. from im small till nw, nver done 2 hear all of this in my fam,.. it is owez sumthing disturb my fam,..! der r owez people dat unsatisfied wif our fam,.. i dun noe which way dat they r not satisfied wif,.. my fam did not do sumthing dat will hurt people,.. jz being happy fam, people will jles at u,.. what is dat,..? dey r CRAAAAZZZYZYYYY,...!!! omo,..! GOD plez do help dem,..!

if i told people 'bout dis den dey might go like 'very wierd fam' but im dat oready 20 years lived in dis house r really used 2 it,.. sumtymes if da things r 2 hard 2 heal den i will get scred but if not den i jz go like 'whatevr',.. huhuhuh,..

my fam will nver live hppily like other fam r,..! y,..??! if u jz dun like or satisfied in what others do den jz let it go like tell others or jz kept it in our heart or if it is worst jz cried like hell,.. it all will go away ( dat's what i do ) but y must hurt dem wif dis 'haram' way,.. play wif 'bomoh',..! aigoo,.. ~~ nw it is worst i think 4 my fam cz my uncle does not do thing dat he owez do when my fam in dis situation,.. he said ' im not strong enough 2 fight wif all dat ',.. he is OKU person,.. huhuhuhuuhu,.. if only he culd help my dad, mom n granny,.. huhuhu,.. if he done what he is doing b4, he will fall sick 4 a long tyme,..

den my fam hve no choice for jz c ustz dat expert on dis,.. den he gve my mom, dad n granny salt 4 dem 2 get rid of dat thing,.. but i dun undrstand what da salt use 4,.. huhuhuhu,.. (so stupid),.. n nw i dun noe what da real thing going wif dem since they r look fine,.. i once ask my dad n my mom,.. 'r u guys doesn't feel anything 'bout dis,..?' den my dad answered ' nope, jz fine ' den i was like 'what,..? ok den',.. so what else must i worried 'bout,..?? huhuhuhu

so d only thing dat i can do nw is jz pray 4 their safety n healthy,.. huhuhuhu,.. really hope they r fine,.. if i do say i dun like 2 hear all of dis again in my fam den it jz bullshit cz it will happen again no matter hw hard we try 2 avoid it,.. =(

oryte,.. it's oready pass 3,.. i need 2 sleep den,.. huhuhu,.. hope GOD will protect my fam from all dis nonsence thing dat crazy people done 2 us,.. AMIN,..!!!

bzday presents *_*

today, i got my bzday presents from my mom n my dad,.. ^_^ im soo haapy,.. i got present way too early from my ac2al bzday,.. my bzday suppose 2 b on 4th dec but my parents give it 2 me today,.. same as my sis dat suppose 2 b clbrting her bzday on 24th nov which is dis wednsday,..

u wanna noe what did we get,..?? we get da saem thing but diff in color, shape n model,.. we jz got hp notebook + all da gadgets n beautiful necklace,.. im really like da necklace,.. it's not dat i dun like my notebook jz im da type of person dat so into accessories,.. heehhehehe,..

i must be a lot of costs 2 buy all dat stuff 4 us,.. we, my sis n i, really thankful 2 our parents,.. my sis n i did plan dat we must buy sumthing 4 my dad n my mom 4 their bzday,.. my dad bzday oready past but we didn't gve him anything,.. jz a wish from jengka,.. huhuhuhu,.. n my mom bzday on 23rd jan,.. we plan 2 gve their present on da same day,.. as 4 my dad belated bzday present n 4 my mom earlier bzday present jz same like us,.. ^_^

but we didn't evn noe what 2 buy 4 dem,.. i think wanna buy my mom perfume n my dad shirt / 'kemeja',.. but my mom did hve plenty of perfume n my dad also hve plenty of shirt,.. so we in delema on what shuld we buy 4 our parents,.. huhuhuh,.. hope we can decide it b4 we go out on 4th dec soon,.. ^_~

on my bzday, i will gve da present dat we buy 4 our parents,.. ^_^ also on my bzday my beloved fwen, dewi, will come 2 kl n celebrate mine n her bzday 2gether,.. evn her bzday did past on 4th dec she refuse wanna come,.. her bzday on 25th nov, on dis thursday,.. 2morrow i will go out wif my cousins n i will think what present i shuld buy 4 dewi,.. ^_^ i can't wait 4 dat day, 4th dec, 2 come,.. it's not jz my bzday but i wanna c my fwen like crazy,..!!! huhuhuhu,.. really miss her so much,..!

hmm,.. nw tyme oready pass 3 a.m,.. i must sleep nw,.. gdnyte 2 all,.. c ya,.. n hope dat our day 2morrow will b da better den 2day,.. jaljayo,.. ZZZZzzzZZZzzz,.. @_@

my bro shocked us,.. =p

today, in da morning, my 'lil bro shocked us dat he's locked in da car,.. he jz 1 years n 4 month,.. huhuhu,.. im sleeping upstairs den my mom from da next room call me n say 'cpt 2rn adk awk t'knci dlm kete' n im dat tyme was 'mamai' goes like 'huh,..? umi jgn nk tpu' den my mom said 'ske ati awk r nk cye or x yg psti nyer 2rn tlg umi' im jz followed my mom evnthough im not believe her,.. when i reached da car i was like 'omg !' my granny said dat my dad put him in da car n check d engine cz he want 2 go 2 N9 dis mon 2 send her daughter dat teach der,..

our whole fam try 2 get him out from der,.. my dad went 2 d office 2 get da spare keys dat he left der,.. my mom really mad at my dad b'coz dis 2 happen also dat he put da spare keys at office,.. we try our best 2 get him out from da car,.. he locked inside da car almost 2 hours,.. we were sooo worried,..! my bro 45 mins in da car he was like dancing n laughing at us outside dat he thought we were joking wif him,.. after dat he goes crying so hard,.. dat tyme my mom dun care 'bout da car anymore n said 2 my sis' awk g ambk hmmer kt ats' den she ask my sis 2 'cungkil' back mirror,.. my granny repeated mny tyme 2 tke cre of my bro face cz he facing my sis dat wanna break da mirror,..

then, after my sis broke da mirror my mom quickly 'pnjt' dat back mirror 2 get my bro,.. he was so wet wif his 'peluh',.. when my mom him, he still crying,.. my mom took him inside da house n cool him down,.. my granny ask my sis 2 make his milk,.. he drink his milk while crying,.. he did not drink all his milk like owez,.. den my granny ask me 2 bathed him,.. im bath him while 'pjuk' him 2 stop crying,.. he did stop crying den,.. we were released,..!

after bathed, my mom make him rice n give him,.. he did ate it,.. he did not cryied anymore,.. when my dad went home from d office my mom dun speak 2 him cz so mad,.. den he jz went out 2 repair da car,.. my mom so agry cz she said he did wanted 2 check d engine cz he want 2 send her daughter 2 N9 dis mon,.. she goes like' per yg dy pntg sgt ank dy yg kt cne 2 tah,.. bkn dowg d bg jasa pn kt dy,.. blik2 mntk duit,.. dowg mntk duit smpai bpak dowg da xd duit den mrmpat ngn aku,..dk2 ni pn ank dy gak tp d kew dy ambk pdli,..? d kew dy bg duit cm dy bg kt ank2 dy kt cne 2,..? xd pn,,!' my mom was so mad,.. we, my sis n i jz shut our mouth,.. jz my granny dat open her mouth 2 spoke 2 my mom,.. she cooled down my mom,.. huhuhuhu,..

ac2ly, i was mad 2 when i heard my mom said dat,.. but i jz shuted cz i dun think dat i hve ryte 2 speak,.. but if think 'bout it my mom hve a point,.. i dun noe what matter wif my dad,.. he seem jz abandon us n concerned more 2 his fam at trggnu side,.. huhuhu,.. if think crrctly, he has no bsness wif dem anymore jz 2 gve dem d mney dat court asked my da 2 gve,.. dat's all,.. den he released from dem but my dad seems dun want 2 let dem go,.. i can really undrstand dat b'cz dey r his 1st fam,.. but y did us like dis,..? my sis n i dun really care 'bout his love cz we used 2 live w/out dad love 4 18 n 17 years,.. but we concerned 'bout our lil bro,.. he jz 1 years old,.. he really need his dad love,..

my mom can't anything more cz my dad once said 'klo asyk nk mrah jer bek kter b'psah' is adt hw he supposed 2 said,...? hw cme he,..? my mom immediately shut her mouth,.. really mad till she can't say a word,.. i heard my mom story i was like 'gler kew per owg 2a ni ?' but jz in my heart,.. den i kept in my heart,.. once my dad yelling at my mom n abandon both of dem, my bro n my mom, den i will lose my respect 2 him 4 all my life like what i did 2 my true dad,.. really,..!! i will do it,.. no matter what my mom will say evn my fam,.. cz i dun like any1 2 hurt my mom,.. physically evn mentally envn emotionally,..!!!

4 nw i will jz be patient evn i lil by lil losing my respect but i try not 2 show it,.. huhuhuhu,.. i love my fam but i dun like violent or rude people in my fam,..! it's jz enough i went trough it once,..! i dun wanna it 2 be happen again,.. myb last tyme i was lil n stupid 2 noe anything but nw im older enough 2 noe what happen,.. if it happen 2 my mom like last tyme i will not b thinking too long 2 yell at him,..!!

my license

today my sis ask me 2 go to IMKEDA (license place 4 learning) to renew our license,.. we will get out competent license soon,.. hehehe,.. can't wait 4 it,..! so excited ! da girl said we will get 1 day after or 4 days after if der r no prob occurs,.. ^_^ hope dey will be ok while our license is being process,.. huhuhu,..

talk about license,.. since i will got my competent license,.. i will tell da truth 'bout me den,.. huhuhu,.. im 21 yrs old n will get my true license soon but im not really noe hw 2 drive n nver been drving since i got my P license,.. can u balieve it,..? hahahaha,.. i got scared u noe,.. 4 me all car 2 too big 4 me 2 drive it,.. huhuhu,.. it scred me 2 death,.. but if im not driving it will b a waste of money 2 renew my license once it has come 2 due date,.. =( but hw can imake dis scared feeling go away,..? HELP ME PLEZ,..!!!

my olidays ^_^

15 & 16 nov 2010

on dat days, we went 2 port dickson 2 finished our tyme as fam 2gether,.. abah, umi, adik, haiqal n me,.. we all 2gether went der on da 15th morning after breakfast,..

on dat morning before we tok off, my uncle's car broke down cz of strom dat night so his hve no ride 2 go 2 his office den he ask us a favor 2 drop him off at his office before we go 2 PD,.. den my dad agree wif dat,.. we drop hi at his office den,..

after dat, we continued our journey 2 PD,.. at about 12.3o we reached d hotel,.. we stay at sri pena as usuall went we go 2 PD,.. sri pena is da hotel own by NSTP since my dad is employee der n also my mom dat ex-employee der,..

when we reach da hotel, my dad took da key room den laod our belonging into da room,.. we rested a while till dat evning n we went 2 da swimming pool 2 enjoy swimming,.. hehehe,..

dat 2 days we der,.. der r no people in dat hotel since school break haven't started yet,.. if we go on sat ot sun it's definitely full house,.. hehehe,.. owez been like dat,..

da day after 2morrow, da day dat we went back 2 KL,.. my mom ask my dad 2 stoped at da town first before went home,.. den my dad was like 'nk wtper?' my mom say she want 2 shopping 4 some clothes,.. hahaha,.. dat tyme i felt sooooo happy,.. i love u r mom,.. hehehe,.. we shopping our clothes at about 1 n half our,.. den we went back 2 KL,..

we reach home at 5 or 6 in da evning,.. ^_^ i felt so happy cz we can spent our tyme 2gether as fam after my examination dat make me crazy,.. heehhe,.. hope i can get a gud resut in my examntions,.. ^_^ insayaAllah,..!

'bout my last day at uitm 4 dis sem ^_^

sunday - 14/11/2010
@ 8.30 am

i woke up n continued my stdies 4 my paper,.. im so sleepy but i force myself 2 woke up,.. =( my sis still sleep,..

@ 10.15 am

my sis woke up n tke her bath den ask me 2 follow her 2 dining 2 have our meal,.. we go dining n find der r no polistrine 4 us 2 fill our food,.. den we decide 2 eat der,..

@ 1.00

i did my prayer n prepare myself 2 go 2 da examination hall,..

@ 2.15 pm

im having my last paper which is mgt300 sub,.. it's not hard like i thought it is,.. i think i can do it,.. but who noes what will hppen,.. i jz need 2 pray 4 a gud result now,.. i did try n do my bez in my exms,.. ^_~ in da hall jz nw, wow,..! im freezing like hell,.. soooo cold,.. i can't bear it,.. huhuhu,.. i dun think dat it will b dat cold,... my entire body fell like freeze,.. my brain do not help me at all,.. i try 2 think what da point dat i've been mmorize b4 dis but i tke about 5 min 4 1 point,.. huhuhu,.. i really dissapointed 'bout dat,.. i also, dis is so crius, i did finshed all da question den im in da middle 2 check my answers n dat tyme i realise dat i did not answers 1 more question,.. thank god dat give me tyme 2 check back my answers if not i will jz let da question alone w/out answer it,.. huhuhuhu,..

@ 5.15 pm

my exam finally over,....! by da tyme exam was over, da hall r 80% empty,..! people got out early,.. wow,..! i was i like 'cpt nyer dowg wt',.. hehehehe,.. but i was totally released dat my exams r over w/out probs n i can njoy my olidays,.. but most of all i can get da hell out of dat freezing hall,.. omg,..! i will bring my sweater when i sit 4 next sem paper der,.. huhuhuhu,..

@ 6.15 pm

our (my sis n i) waiting tyme is over when my parents arrived at uitm 2 pick up us,.. hehehehe,.. dey came wif haiqal, my cute little bro,.. we load our stuff in da car n get our ass out of uitm,..! hehehe,.. during our back home, my stomach, omg, did sing a lot of song,.. huhuhu,.. im so hungry,..! luckily my dad stop @ r&r 4 pray at least der i can fill my empty stomach,.. hehehe,..

@ 10.30 pm

we reach home savely,.. we unload our stuff from car,.. it's so much of stuff 4 da 2 of us,.. my mom said 'kowg ni dtg uitm nk stdy kew wt p'tnjkan fesyen,..?',.. hehehe,.. hw did we noe dat we hve dat a lot of stuff,.. at home my granny said 'ni meme btol ckp owg g xnk lek',.. so funny all of their words but what can i say,..? nothing so what i can do jz laugh,.. ^_^